So I'm A Hypocrit...And?

Okay:

Yes, we're all hypocrites. I am perhaps the biggest of them all. And, for whatever reason, it doesn't really bother me. I'm just funny that way.

But today my glaring hypocrisy was brought home in the most unusual of ways.

And before you ask, yes, I was watching porn.

I've been very honest and upfront about my fascination with porn in this blog. I personally don't see anything wrong with it. It's legal. And I don't go for none of that super duper freaky shit. I like my porn straight up. No chaser.

I am peculiar in the sense that I really don't like interracial porn.

This is an extension of my black nationalist idealism. I think black folks should date and marry black folks and make black families and raise their children to do the same.

I don't have anything against white people.

Well, that's not entirely true. But I wouldn't consider myself prejudiced.

I've got white friends and I have them over for dinner all the time. Well, actually I have one white friend. But she does come over for dinner sometimes.

See? I'm progressive.

But the interracial porn thing really bothers me. I just don't like it, man. It's creepy. Something about watching some white boy pound away on one of my sisters, whore that she might be, makes me uncomfortable.

Same thing with watching brothers humping on white girls. I'm always thinking, You shouldn't be doing that, man.

In the real world, of course, I don't have these same qualms. Although I am very serious about finding myself a good black woman, I have dated/slept with white women and I don't really hold any judgement against others who have done the same. We're all people, man.

Is my hypocrisy making you dizzy?

So, I'm coming to the point.

Today I was surfing the net for porn and found something that looked like it was worth watching. White girl/black guy. Not really my thing, but I figured I'd give it a chance.

So the name of this video was "Monster Cock" and the theme was white girls going to town on well-endowed black men. It sounded entertaining. Vaguely racist, but entertaining.

So they found some freak of nature with a twelve-inch schlong and some giddy blond and put them in a room together. Pretty normal at first, and disappointingly boring. Then she started talking and things got...well...interesting.

I'm used to the usual fare, but this was different. Close to the end of the scene, with some encouragement from the director, she started screaming out, "Fuck me with your big nigger cock!"

Then he smacked her.

And she kept saying it. "Big black nigger cock. Fuck me, nigger!"

And so he started choking her.

Then she said, "Give me some of that good nigger cum."

And that's when I turned it off.


I'm not sure why I'm so indignant about this. But something inside of me, for a moment, entertained the thought of writing a letter. Something along the lines of, "I was deeply offended by the racially offensive language in your pornographic film."

But then I caught myself. It's a pornographer's job to meet the needs of any niche market with a ready credit card. And apparently, there are people out there who go for this kind of thing. Not my cup of tea really, but who am I to judge?

I'm fairly certain Al Sharpton or Jesse the Castrator wouldn't want anything to do with this, but still, it just doesn't seem right.

Your thoughts?


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